After a few better days, yesterday was horrible. Major step back. Had a huge blow up with a very dear friend, one predicated by me and my behavior, thoughts, etc....
This person has/will forgive me but again I said such horrible things that it probably changes our relationship some, and not for the better. I knew the encounter carried some danger, I prepared myself for that and basically within 30 seconds any thought of DBT or stopping myself was gone. I went into a full blown rage.
This time I wasn't really able to recover. Wasn't really able to soothe myself or really find comfort anywhere. Pretty much sucks.
I am also probably going to blog less. I think trying daily makes me feel like I have to come up with something.
Some days I just don't have as much to say