I've honestly struggled with DBT therapy at times. I think it began with some non professionals jumping hard on me about if it doesn't work you are not trying hard enough. Or worse, you don't want to get better
What ignorant comments. It felt like getting kicked while I was down. I'm 48 and my diagnosis dates back to age 4 and wasn't discovered till age 47 so yeah...I have a lot of baggage to work through. I will get there.
Today someone reached out and thanked me for something they really needed. It made my day...and probably my week. Just KNOWING that I can help someone takes the focus off of my own pain and allows me to share deeply. It makes all the negatives I have heard about my blog worth it. (It wasn't my blog they were referring too lol...doh a slap down to my narcissism)
Today something just "clicked" for me. I have talked at length about the safety of my own world and how hard it is to want to be in the "present" when the present isn't very pretty and if I had a receipt I think I would return it.
While doing some meditation a few things dawned on me.
First- One of my favorite bible versus says "Do not worry about tomorrow for today holds enough worries of its own."
I think I confused my present with my future.
Second- I thought well Michael, what DOES mindfulness mean to you. So I came up with this
Yesterday doesn't remember me, tomorrow doesn't know me but I own today
In no way would I minimize anyone's pain, I know I get mad when people try to marginalize and minimize mine.
But it is it really that simple? Maybe, Maybe not. But my past is over. My future is yet to be determined.
But I claim today as my own. We'll see how this carries over with me the next few days.
I encourage people to think of WHO they are thankful for this year rather than WHAT.
I encourage people to reach out to those that are depressed and lonely. Be someone they can be thankful for