As the back pain intensified though it became harder to stay positive. I threw my pain meds away as they just make me feel weird and itchy. I'm sure some of my "pill popping" friends would be mad I flushed 57 pain pills down the toilet.
My PCP and I settled on Gabin (something) which is a nerve pain med used for neuropathy. Last night I slept well and woke up in less pain, what was left was very pinpointed and not "all over" as it had been.
I woke up to an e-mail from out therapist cancelling for the 3rd time in 5 weeks. Completely unacceptable. In fact if I were her boss I'd send her packing and I hope she reads this. We disagreed on treatment from the beginning. She apparently didn't believe or know that treatment ONLY works when the patient is involved and believes.
Her diagnosis was LAUGHED at by my shrink. I tried to discuss with her but she had made her mind up. Aspbergers LOL. I OVER READ not UNDER READ social cues. My son has aspbergers so we are very familiar with the symptoms. She chose Bi Polar and denied BPD. Then she says that will help my disability case
I have never asked or done myself, ANYTHING to try and win disability, I don't do that and ppl that know me know that. I either qualify or I don't. Lets not take "angles"
Yeah...I'm pissed. I have blogged at great length about the failure of MH treatment. This falls intro that. Her treatment was what she wanted to do regardless of my opinion. Treating the wrong diagnosis is an issue
The BIGGEST issue is simple. My last therapist and my Psych both agree its VERY important to go and deal with past pain. To not do so would be leaving a huge wound untreated. She did not want to do work on my "past"
Well EXCUSE me...but I am the one left all week to deal with this pain and then to not want to treat it....its a joke and if she is going to be a therapist she needs to understand this whole MY WAY has never worked and won't.
My daughter is done with her as well. Very upset she had cancelled again as Jordan is 10 days away from starting Middle School and is really freaking out. I won't allow ANYONE to hurt or interfere or FAIL to give her what she needs.
I was then in a Twitter war of words over something I posted. I guess I don't communicate as well as I thought I did.
Sorry everyone, I know you all only like the good. Don't have that today. I am weary and feeling like I don't want to try anymore. Please read my indictment of MH entry from Oct or Nov. I live it everyday
I guess I will work on these things on my own after all thats the way its always been, its what I know. I don't have enough for me and I am afraid I have no hope to offer today. Just pain and on my own
Not sure if I will blog more or less. The sad thing is this "crash" occurred in a matter of a few hours