For as long as I can remember music has moved me. Certain songs, lines within songs all speak to me. I imagine this holds true for many. For me, it moves me to an emotion, place or time. Certain songs simply say it better than I can. I can drive for hours listening to home made CD's. I tend to theme my music together by genre, to some extent anyway.
Yesterday I listened to music. This is one of my comfort mechanisms. As I thought yesterday about what it really means to let go of the past. In some ways it's like breaking up with someone, someone you know isn't good for you but someone that is familiar and therefore brings comfort. Probably that is as much codependency though. Well not CO as I am sure the 80's and 90's could go on without me lol.
The trick for me is to not get stuck in the past. It spirals into self-doubt and regret pretty quickly. It's been very hard to let go of the past, learn from it and move on. Like an ex-girlfriend it's easy to want to run into the arms you know. It's a safe place for me.
Sometimes I will find a song and just listen to it over and over. It's like each time it reinforces the feeling or moment I am trying to capture. It also carries emotion with it, and for someone that struggles with anger, ANY other emotion can be a welcome relief. Yesterday I found such a song. One that really speaks to me about holding on to the past. One of the things it does is draw a nice contrast with lines like "You only know you've been high when your feeling low" That is really true, to be at one extreme normally indicates you have also experienced the opposite. The more and more I listened to this song I realized letting go wasn't getting rid of anything as much as packing those memories up, in a box and putting them away for safe keeping.
Anyway, it's a great song. Many, many of the lines speak directly to how I feel. Enjoy