Anyway, I digress. As Polonius says in Hamlet "Brevity is the source of wit...therefore let me be brief"
I had started gambling while working at a Dog Track, once Casino's opened up I was hooked. I was the sort of gambler who DIDN'T spend their rent (Ok, once I did lol) but rather spent every dollar I could squeeze out of the budget. No spending money, money for clothes (Other than when school started) so I JUSTIFIED my behavior in all sorts of ways (To myself) But it was all a lie. So...what does that mean for the pic :-) After I returned we had enough money to pay rent and live light till my first paycheck. Now...when I would go to Vegas, I would go again when i got home stating "It's to get it out of my system" next thing I knew I was $200 into our rent payment. I came home and asked my Dad for the $200. He said No, maybe one of a handful of times he has said that. I went back to the boat with $50 and a prayer. As I saw my last quarter disappear I sat numb. I realized I needed help. Grabbed my wife and walked up to the Gaming Commission and banned myself for life (But they actually REMOVED it when KS opened up casinos...pretty sad) so from 2002-2012 I rarely went and would have to go to Indian Casino's or be arrested. Again, the "lifetime" ban was dropped and you had to re-apply.The funny thing was they let me cash in my food comps and we went walking out of there with 10 sandwiches LOL, frickin hilarious watching my 5' wife trying to carry 4 of them. My dad complimented my decision and did help with food (The new job paid 1x a month...once you got used to it I liked it)
A week to the day of my "ban" Michele brought home a test. I asked her why do you want to put yourself through this again? She stated some things way beyond my knowledge...like hearing babies cry gave her a specific feeling or whatever. I told her we would look at that result together. So after 5 minutes we walked in and there it was, clear as could be, we were pregnant! She just cried. I had never been to the birth of a child, much less mine. (One adopted, the other I found out about when she was 3 Mo. old) This is one of 2 of my favorite pictures. She suffers from several issues but I love her as much today as I did the moment she was born. At times, we feel like we have let her down, but you know what...we may not have money, cell phones or enough to eat at McDonalds more than 1x a month. I don't say that to illicit sympathy rather to illustrate. But we have each other. Our family is coming together in spite of what I and others struggle with. My wife has blossomed into who I always knew she was.
You can draw your own conclusions between the ban and the pregnancy a week later. I know what I believe.